Monday, October 10, 2005

You'd be sooo nice to come home to... 

Among my myriad of MS symptoms one of the most painful and difficult to control is muscle spasticity. My muscles tense up involuntarily and it can be very painful. I haven't tolerated medications for it either, they make me feel tired and spacey. A few days ago I bought myself a heated mattress pad (50% off sale!) because it gets chilly in my house and I don't want to turn the heat on yet. This heated mattress pad not only kept me roasty toasty warm but helped to relax my sore muscles too! It didn't cure the problem of course, I'm in pain as I sit here typing this but it did provide a little temporary relief which is better than nothing. I would recommend one of these things to anyone who has spasticity or simply wants to stay a little warmer, I swear it's worth every penny.

On another topic, I recently read an interesting article that discussed connections between smoking (second-hand smoke included!) and the worsening of symptoms in MS'rs and also how smoking appears to increase the likelihood of getting MS. Stick *that* in your pipe and smoke it, all you selfish bastards who claim you aren't harming anyone!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

MS or just aging? 

I'm turning 35 this Friday and for the first time ever I'm actually a little freaked out by the idea of getting older. Just a tiny bit but enough to sweat it. Oh don't give me that "It's just a number" crap! 40 seems way too close now. I look in the mirror and I'm starting to really see my age. I guess all that rock star livin had to catch up with me eventually.

These past couple weeks have been torture. The fatigue has been worse than usual (which is pretty bad) and it doesn't show any signs of abating. I've tried going to bed earlier, taking vitamins, taking walks, drinking coffee but nothing makes a difference. Most of the time now I feel like a zombie, I constantly fight this feeling of being wobbly, I don't know how else to describe it. It feels as if there's a metronome in my chest causing me to sway and my vision keeps blurring. It happens everyday now. I get completely wiped out by simply eating breakfast and showering, by the time I get to work I'm ready to lie down. Is this worsening fatigue just aging or is it MS? Perhaps it's a little of both.

On a brighter note my best friend just got engaged and that makes me so incredibly happy! Congratulations Becky!!!

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